my dearest honey

My dearest honey,

I miss you so much right now. So much has changed. I would do anything to have you be by my side right now to hold me close and tight as I cry sad tears because I miss you so much. I miss having you as my person, as my soulmate, as my best friend and as my lover, my everything.

But now in my bed there's only me. No one beside me to share it, no one to steal the covers when I tug at them, no one to keep me warm and no one to give me cuddles from behind. I miss how you make me laugh. Now each time I think of you I cry uncontrollably and there's no one to wipe my tears, no one to hold my hand, no one to stroke my hair and tell me that I'm beautiful even when I'm crying, even when I'm sad.

I don't know when I will see you again but I think I look forward to when we do meet up. I am not sure what I will say or if there's anything to say. I hope you are doing ok, I hope you are coping as best as you can. I don't know where you are right now but I hope you know that I am thinking of you, crying for you. 

I can't help but think that after everything we are meant for each other. I know that this might well change with time and feelings. But right now I can't help but have such strong feelings that after a lot of time apart, we both will realise that there's no one else like each other. That we will give us another chance, a new life together, a new beginning. A grown up beginning.

And I can't help but see me being really happy for giving it a go, my best shot, and never looking back. You fill me up so full like no one ever has and I am not sure I will ever let anyone else even try. 

I love you so much honey and I miss you like crazy.

I hope you are thinking of me too.

Love,
your puffin