hat-ah

I've just got back from a killer session of hatha yoga and I feel tall, I feel powerful, I feel in control and I feel ready. The feeling is almost orgasmic. This, is why yoga is so amazing. My hips feel open and ready for quite possibly an onslaught of torture and a good banging, but they are ready. My shoulders feel more open and settled than they ever have for a long time. My core feels strong and lean. As romantic as it sounds, I feel like I'm cleaning from within. My skin is quite bad and I get sudden hot flushes in my face as I practice yoga. It's a good thing. It is getting rid of all the crap from within, all the do's and wants and shoulds. I am preparing my body for change and change can only come from within. 

I feel ready to start something new. A new us. Not getting-back-together us necessarily, but a new us. A new uninfluenced, unashamedly, unlying us. 

The feeling of determination is so strong I feel the wind beneath my wings like an arrowhead. I don't need (for the moment) anyone to talk to, I don't need the company of others. I am whole and I am all I need to get through this.

I am ready. 

I am also ready for a long weekend of yoga devotion. I will be in a tent, as close as possible to nature. As I watch the lightning strikes on my way home tonight, I feel it is a sign that the impending rain is here to help with the cleaning. 

I revert back to my favourite quote from Paulo Coelho - 

When you want something, all the world conspires to help you achieve it.

I am ready to receive what is in store for me.